bottom of a bottle

Been scared and lonely
I've asked myself "is something wrong with you?"
My girlfriend told me
"I need some time alone to deal with issues."

Something makes me carry on
Its difficult to understand
What I always want to find

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle

You always call me
And ask me how I make it through the day
I'm always falling
I guess thats just God's way of making me pay

And I
I wonder why I try
And I
I wonder why I bother
And I
I wonder why i cry
Why I
I go through all this trouble

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as days passed.. the same routine goes on everyday.. as i sit here again with nothing to think of to write.. xD eheh. i cant even find a suitable title for this post.. -_-

we're now having our 1 week period of holidays.. seems like forever to me. time passed so slow. thats cuz its plain boring.. lol. this 1 week was suppose to be a studying period for us students but i on the other hand im feeling pretty lazy like always.. its more like.. eat,sleep,go online,eat,sleep,go online and more sleep..

yes im a pig thankyou. i just thought leave sum crap on my blog since its been awhile..


no post till god knows when.. my laziness has got to an extend which cant be stated. i'll blog again sum other time. i guess u buggers have to wait till one of those days ends?.. :) haha till then..

cheers everyone

belated b'day

the time is 4.58am as i sit in front of the pc and try to update my blog since i havent wrote anything in days.. never really thought i had the fuckin effort to really blog rite now cuz im fuckin sleepy ah well here goes.

hmm.. friends decided to celebrate my belated bday today..well, thx guys.. really appreciate it.. anyway im goina make in simple and short aight? desperately needa crash.. tho its not the 1st time ive tasted desperation.

came around amcorp in the morning for a drink with alfred n vince. had a couple of jokes and talks. went for guitar after that.. never thought it lasted that short.. ah well went for pool/snooker with em. james arrived n went for another drink n talk things out bout tonite. wuz plannin on goin to redbox. n yeah we did.. well at 11.30pm anywayssss......

it wuz only noon then.. so we kinda bore ourselves around amcorp doin nth tryin to kill time till 11.. it felt like centuries i tell ya. well time eventually passed... =.= john.p came in the night. thanks the lord he drove. all went for a drink in state/newtown then we headed to redbox at the curve. 2 cars. william wuz driving the other car. me jp n the gang reached but unfortunately william and the other gang in the car got lost and passed the toll gawd knows how many freakin times.*i knoe u guys got loadsa bucks but spend dun la spend it on taxes.. -.- fuck badawi wei for raising the petrol price god knoes how many times.. fuckin hell. ah well, they got there eventually.

had a great time screaming me lungs out.. and yes i lost my fuckin voice thanks to linkin park songs... =X anyways it wuz fun. yadayadayada blablabla. i'll cut the crap k?.. it wuz already 3.am when we finished. went for a drink sumwhere in ss2 l8er. nothing else then.. everyone went home and slept.

i crashed at vince's place which is where i am right now. kinda tiring. vince is stonning to sum comedy tryin hoping to fall asleep.. im right here. where else could i be? =P anywaysSss.. thats that .. wut a day huh.. its 5.28am right now and my brain's about to shut down.. i'll blog sumother time i guess. zZzz~.. *passes out*

boredom

havent blogged in days but it doesnt make any differents.. i've been studyin.. well, kinda.. lol its already an honor for me to open a book xP. rottin at home with nothing to do but sit down here and stare at the blank screen is not what you would wanna do.. total boredom.. had trials today, history wuz a pain in the hole.. i was totally blank holding the pen not knowin wuthahell to write.. =.= ah well, there's another 9G. finished the paper in an hour anyway.. for the remaining time wuz spent vandalising my desk.. thank god i dun needa go to school tomorrow due to the other exam subjects which im not takin.. i guess i'll try being a nerd and study tomorrow.. x) and i've got another black tee from Kar Kit fer my burfdae.. :) thanks loads.. looks like black tee's are my burfdae gifts for this year.. ^^

feeling a lil blue these days.. i'll be in my crypt sleeping fer now since there's nothing more to be done..

>out<

saturdayout

turning on the pc and going online just as i got home.. no life huh.. yeah, sittin down here writtin sumthin right after i got back from amcorp. the usual saturdays. its been quite a boring day tho. met vince in the morning for breakfast and he fuckin arrived late cuz he fell asleep sittin infront of the pc.. *fucker made me wait!* consider it branch fer now. so yeah.. went had a drink with the motherfucker and later on bumed into Roshen who said he couldnt make it came eventually but with only 1buck n 40cents on him and yep he wuz named '1ringgit40cents' for today.. lol.

went for pool and these 2 idiots kinda banged the lamp above the pool table with the que and made the boss mad.. hahah vince accidentally hit it and his so called disease spreaded to Roshen and there you have it.. haha their asses definately got screwd by the manager. pissed of manager shoke his head and walked away.. i swear to god it wuz caused by that britney spears mtv that wuz showing. its evill!!

james arrived so we went for another drink -.- then went loafing around the mall.. this smartass vince HAD to spit down the stairs and unfortunately it hit the guard who wuz sittin around there.. the dude blew his whistle and we were gone like the wind man.. haha sick.

went pierced my ears after that and headed home. *yeh it wuz burning* im kinda lazy to type already ><. so i'll leave it till here for now. my day didnt turn out THAT boring after all. lol oh yea aunts n granparents comin over for dinner l8er. alrite i stink and i wanna go bathe real soon.. damn im hungry! havent eaten in 10yrs ><.. cheers everyone =D

>nick out<

another one of those days..

urgh.. back hurts like a bitch. prolly woke up at the wrong side of the bed today.. As i opened my room door after turnin off the aircond hoping that i would find sum warm air after waking up in an iglu like room.. but heck, the aircond outside's on as well.. -.-* ah well, here i am bluring, freezing and wondering wuthahell to write tho as my head's totally blank right now after wakin up. grr..i need a cigarette and sum food right now.. i'll prolly be back to write more after im done with my chors i guess.. or else i'll just hav to leave u guys here with nothing to read since its a boring day today.. =D till then..

toodles~

=X

ii i.. ccc.. an.. canttttt.. br.. bre.. breat.. breathee!!.. *sufficates and dies*

oh gawd~

nothing's been up actually exept for the goddamn haze as you can see. i mean, check out the haze man~.. its even in my room! lol this aint sumthin i see everyday o.O .. school's suppose to hav holz but due to the up and comin trials it can't be done.. heck, how the fuck are we suppose to study or sit for any stupid exam when we're choking and our eyes burning half the time anyway.. the principal/headmaster and the goverment are prolly fuckin blind.. im gonna skip school tomorrow and sleep lik a pig.. eyes kinda hurt due to this damn pollution anyway. no doubt i'll be facing the same kinda shyte tomorrow and the coming days if it doesnt rain anytime soon..

wuthefuck happened to that sumthin we breathe called 'oxigen'?! *zZzz~*

monday.. has~

always been a boring day..
come to think of wakin up early in da mornin again after sleepin lik a pig on sunday.. oh well, dats the usual shyte i face every week..
yet kinda fuct up in a way. hate waking up..
not when im havin sweet dreams.. ^^
teacher's blabering during school assembly when everyone's half dead.. nothing new..
teachers.. homework.. alot of em.. especially maths~ *gawd!,. its a freakin monday.. giv us a break*

damn im slacking in studies lik hell and spm trials are about to hit us nxt week..
i better buck up or fuck up.. thats for sure.

kinda broke these days.. well, gotta save up n buy my fwends presies for their cmin burfdae's.. even if it means cuttin down on ciggies.. >< huhuhu

goina go get dinna right now..

sunday morning

*yawn* wut time is it?.. damn its freezing in here.
urgh, where's the loo..
i smell mom's cookin.. =P
alrite im hungry~.. xD
buhbye..

...

dats odd.. noone's really online on a saturday nite.. clubbing?.. damn im bored. cmon dont tell me everyone goes clubbing on a saturday nite.. u guys shud stay home surfin and msn. lol, where're u buggers?! =/

Tired

As usual, headed for guitar, *had prob with a few certain chords cuz my finger wuz kept touchin d damn strings.. ><*

.went for a drink with vince,david n rusell. i wanted 2 go grab sum grub anyway. my 1st meal of d day.. =D apparently after my meal, david n vince had 2 star talkin about "shyte" -_- .. dun ask .. i was lookin at the plate of my nasi kandar with curry on it.. =x nvrmind~.. *gimme my dunhills*

headed off for pool/snooker since we had nothing to do. david and vince pulled off the gayest shots ever! XD haha. we were laffin our asses off lik a bunch of few retarded laffin hyenas.. hell it wuz a long game.

went 2 the curve after that. and damn the cab charges are killing my wallet.*dun die on me yet! i still gotta get my arse home.* went to see emily 2 get my advanced b'day present which she bought and said she couldnt deliver it to me by post cuz she didnt want to wrap it in brown paper.

hmm~..
ive got a card and a tee with puny lil colourful paper made stars in the box~.. ^^ whee~

she had with a couple of friends so i kinda explored the curve for i hav never been to that place before.. kinda cool expensive shyte they sell around there.. bumed into rock corner.. sat there listenin to a couple of albums..for hours! xD i got myself sum dunhills.. my wallet died.

got home by cab. *thank gawd for the extra 10 sumwhere in my wallet* had a small family reunion at home tday. which means sorry i missed ya party kC. and happie burfdae!.. and here i am writtin sumthin with a glass of wine after dinna as my food digests =D. damn i gotta bathe.. this sucker stink big time~ lol.

>out<

woot!

everyone's away on msn. ah well,.. im goina crash soon i guess.. gotta wake up early around 7 so i could get a lift from my neighbour 2 the nearest lrt.. then ill be headin off 2 amcorp for guitar. might be goin 2 1u l8er after that.. i dnnoe. my left arm's still kinda numb.. XD its lik d muscles are breakin down. wuthahell anyway.. im off 2 bed.. hope i dun experience anymore nitemares lik d ones y'day.. >< nite everyone.. *zZzz~*

new skin.. cool shyte eh.. thx to michy.. :D

numb~.. *urgh*

had a jab today in school.. and damn the needle wuz huge!.. felt lik an ant bite tho. all the gurls were lik *omg! omg!..* ahaha funny shyte. the jab wuz 2 prevent measles or sum shyte lik that.. i dun even remember if i had measles before or not.. parents couldnt recall either. oh well now my whole left arm is lik numb~.. im outta ciggies~.. T.T huhuhu.. got a dunhill anyone?.. =/

nothing new happening today.. another one of those boring school days.. *yawn* im off 2 nap.

zZzz..

not exactly an educational day at school tday.. wait, since when school has been educational.. hmm,they had this motivation speech sum guy came from god knows where *i dun giv a fuck* talkin bout how important spm is -.- heck ive been stuffed with that kinda rubbish everyday by parents. but im a stubborn lil bastard who doesnt listen anyway.. >< well maybe thats just me. online right now and bored as always.. i kinda forgot my keys after school n got locked out of d hse..*swt* oh well.. thank gawd my mom came home a few mins l8er.. or else ill b fried in the sun. xD

Tah da~..

aight.. finally my very own blog.. ive no intention to start one anyway in the first place.. but heck, since im online 24/7 i thought id describe my daily happenings in words for u guys out there 2 read.. since a biatch like me hav nothing betta to do.. enjoy. =P